Laws of Attraction

So i have decided that i am going friends only because my business isnt everyone elses but mine and my friends

So i am really getting sick of my english teacher at Henry Ford. He is such an ass hole....he is soooo nit picky when it comes to grading papers....he is psycho.

So yesterday I talked to my mom....that sounds like fun dont it? if you know me then you know the deal. so she wanted to know if i was going to help set up ahd get ready for my grad party on friday night, of ya my grad party is the 24th, but anyways i told her i would. She asked me who of my friends were going to be there and i told her kenny and cassie fo sure. She kept saying that i might want to think about that one (kenny) and i said no i dont thinj i need to. I guess it may make some people uncomfortable of what not....but i will not ber completly comfortable without him there so he will be there. I just kept on telling her that Kenny will be there. I royally pissed her off. He is my boyfriend and we have been together for almost 3 years as of the end of this month. Kenny's mom is going to be there too...his dad has a class to be at so he wont be able to go, otherwise he would be there too. I love his parents....i call them mom and dad. I am really especially close to his dad. It is going to be a very fun and interesting night. anyways i have a ton of homework and i have to work in the morning...i got a lot of hours this week because i am acting manager because Vaughn is on vacation. c-ya lata!

Yesterday was graduation, I am officially a high school graduate, diploma in hand and all! Its about damn time....in a way i am really excited, but then again i am kinda scared and a little bit upset....from now on i am going to be on my own....what ever i do from here decides my fate. On the upside i didnt trip while walking across the stage. The biggest fear of everyones at graduation. Kenny was there but when we met up with my mom and grandma and grandpa they did not say a word to him, acted like he didnt exist....but there is a pretty good reason...its kinda funny actually.

and the story goes like this:
After prom kenny and i got a hotel room and the next day we went to his house and slept...but during this time my mom called me a few times and i didnt know it because i was sleeping...she calls my dad and makes him feel like and ass for not knowing exactly where i was....so i finally call her and she yells at me for not checking in...ok i am 18 years old i dont have to check in constantly. so she wanted to hear what kenny ws saying in the background and wanted to talk to him so he had his chance to tell her everything he had on his chest and i handed him the phone and he had at it...he let her have it....he hit just about every topic. he kept his cool, didnt cuss at her and did not raise his voice. I couldnt believe what had just happened it was amazing. she didnt call me for a few days either.

I didnt tell about prom so here we go:
I had a blast! dancing the night away and all that...shirley temples by the pitcher...Kenny spoiled me rotten. After we got a hotel room and had a bottle of Cabo Wabo, Sammy Hagar's tequila...blue bottle...its like almost $60 but this is such good shit...you can sip this tequila...it was sooooo good. I was soo drunk. We got a room with a jacuzzi tub, king size bed and smoking. It was way too much fun. continental breakfast in the morning. It was like a vacation, even though we were only about 2 miles away from his house. Best western hell ya.

oh and on top of everything...I have shingles...it is clearing up but man that hurt soo bad, it brought me to tears. way too much stress on my hands....from english 131, prom, graduation, my mom, work and just everything...way too much stress!!!!!!

So i am still trying to figure out what i am going to do about my garter, getting my nails done, and of course my hair cut and styled for prom. I am really starting to get excited for prom. I am going to stevenson's to hang with my best friends and i am not paying for anything. I feel bad about it but what am i gunna do. They are getting a limo and all that.

I am trying to get my essay done for my English class which is a pain in the ass, it isnt hard but it is just time consuming and i dont have any motivation to do anything thanks to my intense Senioritis, for anyone that doesnt know what that is, it is technically an inflammtion of a a senoir....hahaha, thanks medical terminology, nah not really it is the lack of motivation that is felt by senoirs in high school, WE WANT OUT NOW!!!!!! as of right now i only have 8 days left and one of them involves me going on a field trip to Greenfield village, my dad is going so it should be fun.

For my prom kenny and i are getting a hotel room and it is going to be really fun, we are going to get a late checkout so that we can go swimming in the morning. We are going to prolly get drunk and pass out but it will be fun. He wants to get a room at the Hilton but i am not sure about that because that is a pretty expensive hotel so ya.

So i have had way too much stress about money in the past week. I had to buy my prom tickets, my insurance, gas and my books for school. and with a $67 paycheck it was a little bit diffucult. thank you daddy for all the help...that is both daddys, my dad and kenny's dad. I call his parents mom and dad because well they told me to. news since i havent updated in freakin forever....Kenny is a on call firefighter for farmington hills, he is still a probationary one but it still is great. i love him. He just got a motorcycle too...which i am still not sure if i really like the idea but i am going to have to get over it. i got to get to class yay ENG 131! not it totally sucks my professor says ain't and talks kinda like a hick.

i have been thinking alot lately....that should worry some people....

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Ya so i have ruined my perfect attendence. I have mononucleosis (mono) and no I did not get it from kissing anyone, or sharing my drink or anything like that. My boss at KMART said that i prolly got it at work because i guess awhile back he got it at work. So ya i hate being at home not being able to go out anywhere or see anyone. It is driving me nuts! I did an entire puzzle in 5 straight hours....nonstop no less. I think i got up to go to the bathroom like once in the 5 hours it took me to do. I beat the urbz video game, finished reading The Da Vinci Code (which by the way was the shit, so if you havent read it then you must asap!) And i have watched alot of Tv. If i have to stay home another week i am going to go9 crazy!. This is seriously the worst time to have this! i have my internship next week and i am in a doctors office, which means i wont be able to do it! DAMMIT!!!!!!! Mrs masserang said that if i cant get my 15 hours in in the 2 weeks scheduled then i guess i cant go into another week. I really hate the ass hole who went to kmart and got me sick! i have like 2 viruses at the same time as well so i am miserable! and tired too! Plus kenny is making me sad because he is all out having fun and then when i call him he doesnt even care, or at least thats how i am feeling. I feel like he doesant care at all, he hardly asked me how i am feeling and all that. Oh and he think s i cheated on him and got mono, because he doesnt think i goti it at work. I am miserable at home being bored thinking about him out having fun, it is driving me crazy. Oh and the enterprise series finale was on tonight and it sucked! it made no sense and it just majorly sucked! Tomorrow i go to the doctors and find out how my mono is doing and if i am going to ave to stay out of school next week. I have a bad feeling that i am going to be. Which if i am then i am going to give my dad the rest of my money to buy the 3rd season of gilmore girls so i have something to do and watch! and my mom is taking me to the library so i can get a book to keep me busy. my mom was being nice and brought me homemade chicken noodle soup. I am glad that she thought about me. I am glad that Cassie has been calling me everyday asking me how i am feeling and all that too. At least a few people care. Well i am going to go go and find something to do...mmfcl

yay today i get my glasses! they are soo cute! I cant wait till my dad gets home. Ya sooo i am going to work on homework

Well the debate last night was really funny....Kerry made an ass of himself...about the weapons ban...he just fucked himself in the ass..all those gun nuts that were voting for him are more than likely not going to be voting for him...HAHAHAHA fucker! This week has been sooo short it is great...half days and all that. I have like tons of projects to do though soo i cant really sit back and relax.

I am sick of this bullshit with Chris Kraft and i am sick of unwanted comments...dont you have anything better to do? Argueing on my journal...sounds pretty childish to me...why dont you just come up and say it to my face insted of being a pussy ass and commenting on my journal and not even signing your gay ass name. Neways for tommy...i am being nice about this and if it doesnt stop then i will have to be a little bit mean....which can get hairy if you catch me at a bad time....dont try entering my life again...yes i did comment on your journal in the summer but like kenny said...i was just doing it to find out where you were moving to...if maybe you were moving to Colorado like you always wanted...i was curious....because if you are caught anywhere near my house you may have a surprise...my dad hates you and well you know what may happen....

Ya so...today is Kenny's Birthday! Happy Birthday Baby! At least a few people said happy birthday to you...my grandparents...me and well my dad...someone else on the other hand was told like 4 times that it was ur bithday and still never asked me to say happy birthday to you...i am not pointing any fingers....Mom....

On that note i am getting sick of my mom being a bitch about a few things that i am not going to get into...except that she is driving me and my dad crazy! He was about to tear his hair out today when he was taking me to school. It was sooo funny i was crying! I love my dad! So ya i finally got an eye appointment thanks to my daddy! Yay no more migraines!

I am gunna be going now....sooo peace bietchs! <---Hahaha Tiffany cracks me up

Yesterday i hung with Kenny and Scott and Brian, Scott's haunted house just opened last night and well me and kenny where guest actors in it. It was pretty sweet. I had a ton of fun! Neways today i hung with kenny for awhile also, but we were at grandma's...hehe it is soo cute that i can call her grandma (his grandma) She says i love you to me and so does his Auntie...they are sooo cute and soo nice. We cleaned her basement and we had KFC. Then i headed pretty much out to Lynn and Ian's house to babysit Taylor and Ayden. They are cute but they can be a handful because they are both very attached to mommy and daddy. But hey it is good cash...but it also sux because all of the money i made today all has to go to much bitch ass mom...i owe her for me cell phone bill...or she will turn it off...but one thing...hahah makes me laugh. If she where to turn it off then she would have to pay a $150 fee i think it is that much. I am watching Clerks the animated series. All by Kevin Smith, the sweetest man alive...well not sweetest mut he is pretty cool. I have now finally started writing a real journal, almost every night i have written in it, i think iyt is a good idea because this way i have everything written down as it happens so i can go back at it in a few years. Because online i cant really tell what i feel and all that because that will just start a whole nother childish fight with my sisters...so i am avoiding it. I think i am going to go and continue watching Clerks...goodnight bitches...Peace to the people that i dont want to burn in hell!

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ya so today after i was about to lose hope for getting medical assisting at the career center..i get called down to the counseling office and mr hovermle tells me that there is a place and it was mine if i still wanted it and i practically jumped up and down. thought ihad to drop ms rod's class and photo 2 which i had 2 exciting projects to do in...but i will take those classes another time...i really wanted this other one soooo ya.

i feel bad for jon though because he doesnt have anyone to really talk to in photo but i guess i can still eat lunch with him because we dont know anyone in C lunch.

Today is the premeire for joey! i am excited! lately i have been in a creative mood and i have been getting back to more drawing. i have been doing some writting too. but ya...it is wierd over at my dads because i feel like i am soo far away from everyone. i think i need to go and study for my govt and math tests 2morrow because i care about doing well in school1 hahaha really i do.

Well school hasnt been tooo bad...i may be getting the career center class that i wanted but that also means that my whole schedule is gunna be mutitated, but oh well. I am in the worst lunch ever...there is no one i know except for Jon...whom by the way is in my 4th hour and i guess well i think he has a thing for holly because he drives her top school everyday now and he says it is on his way...actually it really isnt...hmmmm. I finally got all settled in for the most part at my dads house...it is cool here , air conditioning and well there is alot more privacy if i really want it...i dunno i like it alot over here...Today i drove my dads manual car...well practiced in a desered area near Meijers i kinda suck at it but i guess i am gunna keep trying....i was soooo excited i did a burnout and i didnt mean to but i left marks on the ground and everything. i took a picture of it with my camera. my dad didnt say much but i think he was kinda proud of me in a way...hehe although i dont know how i did it.

i think things are kinda in a cease fire right now and that is good. otherwise i havent really been up to much...i got hells pit and it is kinda a disapointment...i mean it is good but i expected more from it i guess...i like the rock part of it kenny doesnt but he likes riddlebox the best and that is all rapping and all that and i like amazing jeckel bros and milenko...i like rock alot. i have to send in my reciept with the quickness because i want to be entered into the drawing to win shit! hell ya! but neways i wanna go watch a movie sooo peace all yall

ya so i p[icked up my schedule from school and here it is...
1st French 3- Breisch(bitch)
2nd American Govt- Betel
3rd Advanced Composition- Ms Rod!!!!
4th Photo 2- Altman
C lunch
5th Algebra 2- Teets
6th Intro Chemistry- Shannon(yay!)

Ya so about the whole French class i want to go to france and i plan on learning the language but with the bitch Mrs Briesch ya well she doesnt know how to teach...i had her for french 1 and i passed with a 98% most would be like whats the problem...well i didnt learn anything in the class i made it all up in french 2 with Ms Perkins...who i would like to have again. If i cant then i am not going to be taking french...which pisses me off because i want to go there one day. I cant take the bus home to my grandmas because the transportation department sux. I have to to to Anderson to get 2 bus passes...soo ya monday i have to talk to him and well i have to go home with holly then but that is fine because i havent seen her in awhile... i am excited for school to start but i am also nervous...but i am just kinda bored with the summer.

On another note Kenny took the college placement test at schoolcraft...and he did sooo well except on the college math part but who knows that shit except college students!!? So i guess he is going to be a firefighter because he thinks that that would be the best for him to do and his buddy Rick is gunna be a firefighter too he wated to be a cop and a firefighter all his life so he is doing one of them. i am really proud of him and he is doing something with his life soo i guess he isnt gunns be a deadbeat...hmmm...soo ya it is wierd living here at my dads house...i dunno it just is...hehe My daddy's b-day is saturday and i am taking him to the movies to see i think I-Robot...neways tonight me and my mom are going out to dinner soo i think i need to go and get ready. peace....MMFCL

Today i went and visisted some of my juggalo family! Me and Kenny went out to Hazel Park and visisted with soo many TRUE juggalos...we went to Hot Hits too and well Sue is awesome...I bought my tickets for me and Kenny to Hallowicked...i had no idea that they had gone on sale sooo we ended up with balcony tickets...but they were cheaper then going to ticketymaster and well she had only 2 tickets left and wasnt sure that she would get anymore soo i jumped at that when i heard some guy say that he would think about it and i was just like uhhh fuck that i am buyin them and well they are in my hands as we speak! I am excited as hell! I really wish that all the family would be there but i dont think that they will be...Twiztid i am sure will be doing Fright Fest again...which sux because i really want to see them in concert as twiztid and not Dark Lotus. Kenny goty me a Juggalo jersey and i am soo happy...spaz traded him a Original Juggalo jersey like the one s that Jamie and Mono are wearing in the we dont die video...worth oh soo much. He also got a signed ABK jersey too. I though that was soo kewl. Neways...i am now living at my dads and i guess it is kewl...i just miss my cat and my puppy. I mean i love my cats here but i miss the other animals too. I start back to school on the 30th and well it sux but hey i gotta do it. I pick up my schedule on tuesday and i am going with Josh and my little cousin Alexis because i have to babysit that day and i can just walk up there. sometimes i miss my house at my moms because well it was more familiar and it is just weird having me be the first one to go to bed everynight. My dad is up soo late it is kinda kewl because i can listen to my music and all that but well i kinda miss my mom and all that and i know for sure that i miss my awesome stereo too, i am thinking about pickin that up and bringing that here. My dad likes music loud....hehehe...he doesnt mind it and well he listens to it loud in the truck...hehe i love me dad for the simple fact he is soo much like me in sooo many ways...well rather i guess i am soo much like him....he likes loud music, good music taste,spontaneous as hell and well he just can be really kewl....sometimes he can be kinda bummy and pissy but hey who isnt. I love my dad though. Neways 2morrow i am going with him shopping and we might order some clothes too. Neways i think i may have tied up his laptop for long enough...hehehe. Peace...MMFCL!

well...it is out...for all of you that knows what "it" is...Neways...Saturday was great...The signing and all that..we got out there early and chilled with people for a few hours...met some new people and all that. Spaz's girlfriend is much cooler around her hood then she was when they were here. We didnt get to see spaz though...he had to work which is a real bummer. we hung out with C4 and Ninja, sleezy, Trisha, and Travis at C4's garage...he turned it into a hangout...it is kewl. I love hanging out out there the people are just soo awesome it is hard to explain...they dont judge you or nething..it is just a great atmosphere. Pam and Kris are kinda getting to me but you know what, i may not have to deal with them much more, i understand that they want to look out for me and tell me things that they learned but i really think that i would like to make mistakes and all that...people keep telling me this and that and well at one point i just want to tell everyone to shut the fuck up! some family may know in the future but right now i guess it is being kept...a secret sorta... but ya i am babysitting today, a new lady, she is really nice and her kids are so cute...hehe I think i should go take a shower...bye bye

AVP was really sweet! 2morrow is the signing and i am sooo excited! Hanging with true juggalos is one of the best feelings...it ranks up there with the wonderful feeling of an orgasm! hell ya! neways did neone read that bullshit my sister wrote? ya well if not then you should and if you did then aint that a load of shit? haha! i cant believe that school is comming up so soon. I am kinda excited but then i am not...i like sitting in a hot room all day right? ya right...i just miss the people...something to keep me busy..and the way i see it is that well i guess i just want to get it over with and get on to next summer vacation. i have been talking to grant and josh alot...well not alot but more then i have in a long time....sorry boys, i kinda neglected you...will you forgive me...? I hope so because you guys are great! but ya i am sleepy and i have a long ass day ahead of me...so peace and mmfcl

1. Full name: Amanda Kathryne Proctor
2. Nick names: Mandi...hun...baby...pumpkin
3. Named after anyone: Nope.
4. Screen name(s): sleepinbeauti88
5. They mean: i love to get my beauti sleep
6. B~day: Dec. 22nf 1987
7. Age: 16
8. Sign: Capricorn
9. Birth place: southfield
10. Hospital: providence
11. Sex: Female
12. Religion/church: catholic
13. Height: 5'8"
14. Love: YES Kenny
15. Shoe size: 9.5
16. Lefty/right: Righty
17. Eye color: blue
18. Hair color: brown
19. Hair length: shoulder
20. Piercings: ears
21. Tattoos: No
22. Scars: to many to count..inside and out
23. Glasses, braces, etc: glasses but i dont wear them
24. Home: Livonia
25. Sibs/ages: 2 step Pam and Kris
26. Parents/ages: Mom 39 dad 39
27. Pets: 10, 6 cats 1 dog, 1 rabbit, 2 turtles
28. Car: no lisence
29. Living arrangements: moms
30. Hobbies: music, writing, reading, movies chillin with my baby and homies.
31. School: CHS
32. School colors: uhhhh BLACK and RED...kewl colors but they are for my school so they suck right now! except black i love black!
33. School mascot: Charger
34. GPA:3.5 or somethin maybe higher
35. Bed time: when i am tired
36. Morning time: when i get up unless i have school or work
*Friends*
37. Best Friend (girl): Holly or Lyz or Cassy
38. Best Friend (boy): Kenny
39. Other friends:real ones...uhmmm not that many...people and i dont get along...but the true ones i havent talked to in awhile soo....
40. Smartest: uhhh smart...maybe me out of the people i hang with
41. Stupidest: Lyz and cassy are tied
42. Weirdest: Lyz
43. Skinniest: Lyz
44. Cutest: Kenny and Cassy
45. Tallest: Zach- 6'5"
46. Shyest: Scott
47. Scariest: Spaz when he is mad
48. Closest: Kenny and Holly and Cassy
49. Coolest: they all are in their own way.
50. Craziest: Kenny...or Spaz
51. Sweetest: Kenny
52. Nicest: I dunno
53. Meanest: uhhh i dunno
54. Most hyper: Lyz Cassy with liquor and me
55. Hottest: Kenny, Cassy!
56. Loudest: Me and Lyz
57. Friend you trust the most: Kenny with my life
58. Friend you chill wit the most: Kenny
59. Funniest: uhhh
60. Coolest hair: Lyz....Spaz....Kenny!
61. Newest friend: uhmmm i dunno
*Crush *
62. Got a GF/BF: yes
63. Name: Kenny
64. How long has it been: 1 year 1 month and 11 days
65. Sweetest thing they've done 4 you: played come what may at my sweet sixteen party in front of my whole family and made me cry
67. Crush: Cassy but of course kenny!
68. The person you wanna date: Kenny! but i am soo...
69. What do you look 4 in a guy/grl: Personality
70. What do you notice when you first meet them: Eyes
71. Biggest turn on: Piercings! omg that drives me crazy!!!!!! i am horny thinking about it amn tattoos...like kennys!
72. Biggest turn off: posers and i get a vibe that they are shit
*Fave *
73. Movie: i dont even know there are too many to pick
74. Star: Johnny Depp and Nicole Kidman
75. Singer: Psychopathic people and well there are several others
76. Song: uhhh i cont pick
78. Car: viper! *dreams*
79. Flower: Rose, tiger lilys, daisys
80. Holiday: halloween or christmas
81. Animal: giraffe
82. Channel: TLC or UPN or movie or Cartoon Network
83. TV show: Gilmore Girls and the Simpsons
84. Radio station: 101.1
85. Subject: English, and science
86. State: Florida fuck Michigan
87. Country: France
88. Word: to many...i cant pick
89. Phrase: i dunno they usually just rattle off when the time is right
90. Shoe brand: addidas
91. Clothes brand: whatever looks kewl and is cheap for my poor ass
92. Cologne/perfume: Victorias secret Dream Angels Halo
93. Month: November
94. Food: i dunno Japanese
95. Drink: Faygo
96. Store: uhhhh Hot hits
97. Place to visit: Ross and Ronnies, kennys bed
98. Day: Friday
99. Time of day: 2:12
100. Shampoo: whats in the shower
101. Soap: whats in the shower
*Future*
102. Job: Nurse
103. Marriage: uhmm thought a bit but i am still young
104. To: Kenny hopefully if nothing happens
105. Honeymoon: Hawaii
106. Where will you live: prolly this shit hole Michigan
107. Kids: 3 or 4
108. Boy's name(s): i dunno yet
109. Girl's name(s): Emaleth
110. Car: viper
111. What are you doin tomorrow: seeing Kenny
*Past*
112. Go back to anywhere where would you go: Florida on the beach
113. Least favorite memory: me parents divorce watching my dad drive away
114. Most embarrassing moment: i dunno
115. First BF/GF: Mike
116. When was that: 6th grade.
117. Thing you most regret: dating Tommy T
118. Favorite memory: to many to pick
119. The thing you wish you did but didn't: told it when it happend
*Have you ever*
120. Kissed someone: yep
121. Cried your way out of things: yup
122. Got D~hall: yea for getting in a fight with a black girl
123. Tried to kill your self: Yes.
124. Cried over someone you loved: ya
125. Betrayed a friend: no
126. Used someone: maybe it was a long time ago
127. Cheated on a BF/GF: yes...ONCE! a long time ago
128. Lied to your parents: not me....lol
129. Ran away from home: no
130. Got lost in a store: ya
131. Go kicked out of a place: ya
132. Got drunk: yea
133. Drove a car: yea
134. Been grounded: awhile ago
135. Broken a bone: yea
136. Ran into a door in public: yea! lol
137. Biggest Fear: being alone
138. Worst feeling in the world: Fear
139. Greatest feeling: To love someone and know they love you back!
140. Hardest thing you've ever done: to late to think about it
141. Dreams: crazy shit
142. Goals: be spontaneous
143. How big is your bed: full and queen at dads
144. How long are you in the shower: 30-hour
145. How many times do you shower: Daily
146. What do you do in your spare time: masterbate...no...i dunno whatever i feel like
147. What time is it: 11:30
148. What's today's date: august 11 2004
149. Who are you sending this to: Live Journal Readers
150. How many ppl are on your BL: 69
151. Who will most likely fill this out: I dunno
152. Did you like this survey: not bad.
153. How's life: good
154. What have you done today: nuthing

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